Blog : Give Me Grace

Give Me Grace : Your Body Knows {on embodied wisdom}

Be Thou my Wisdom, and Thou my true Word;

I ever with Thee and Thou with me, Lord;

Thou my great Father, I Thy true son;

Thou in me dwelling, and I with Thee one.

In cobblers pose, soles of my feet together, hips flowering to the floor – I welcome spirit and breath as they enter the playground of my physical form. Coordinating my limbs with the work of my lungs is a contemplative experience. It always has been. Adding the word or a meaningful song and its prayer in real-time – the most authentic expression of hope and grace with the members of a singular congregation.  My body. My arms, legs, hands and toes are the members of a holy congregation.  And the word? The word makes it … me whole.

My muscles quake from the encounter. Awakened by the effort of lengthening, stretching and pulling, I simultaneously resist and lean into the effort it takes to do the work.  My body remembers what it feels like to live enlivened. It welcomes the presence of the Holy Spirit. I felt it in the snap, crackle, pop of my right hip. Something in my soul rose up to meet God in that moment. It’s a sweet healing and longing I can’t satisfy otherwise.

I’m a better me when I’m engaging in some form of physical activity. Period. I’ve decided to dance into my 50th year. If I get this right I’ll practice the peace of Jesus as I work out my physical theology.  With an embodied wisdom I’ll re-frame the second half of my life with an intentional integration of the word with movement.

I’m leaning toward the inherent wisdom of the body. The body that remembers. The body that holds memories and is an integral part of what we call the mind…I’m walking toward 50 on a spiritual exploration of what it means to live the embodiment of the word. To do that I’ll peel back the multi-layered wisdom of the body for an encounter with spirit.

You’re invited.

Caring for, gently stewarding with grace the body you’ve been given –  is a gift. There is something of the salvific in keeping covenant with your body. It’s how we re-assemble all the things that life pulls apart.

What does it look like to live into spirit through your body? 

What does physical embodiment look like in praxis?

Let’s start nice and slow. With five movements. Take a moment to unwind with this scripture and the corresponding moments.

It’s easy to begin with common gestures, a few flips of the wrist, a pressing together of hands. So that’s where we’ll start. You can do it.

Join me as we get to the heart of Pslam 19:14

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Let the words of my mouth (hands clasped in prayer touching lips)

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And the meditation (hands cupped together and raised to forehead)

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Of my heart (then lowered and crossed over the heart)

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Be acceptable in thy sight ( raise arms, palms up )

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Oh lord my rock and my redeemer. ( gently flip wrists, palms down )

Let your handmaiden find grace in your sight…#GiveMeGrace
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Give Me Grace : Lord, Help {a prayer}

 

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And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not. 

– Galatians 6:9

“Well and good if all things change, O Lord God, provided I am rooted in You.”

– John of the Cross

Surviving and believing in tomorrow is just a habit I can’t break.

– Marita Golden

Lord we come to you

Words and thoughts made plain in the simplicity of your radical love

Our hearts, preserved by the promise of revelation

Help us Lord – to know you, to know your providence.

 

Help us glory in the mystery of you

Know your presence as an imminent, incarnate – tangible

Lord help us to believe.

 

Lord your truth inhabits the space of knowing and unknowing

May we accept the invitation to live there.

Pliable, committed to change.

Open.

 

Lord help us to forgive each other our imperfections

And in doing so …to forget

Release us from the confinement of memories that do us no earthly good.

Help us to courageously enter the thin place of forgiveness.

 

Grant us divine amnesia, that we might move forward

 

Lord press us into areas that feel uncomfortable

And when we must, on the road to enlightenment – help us to walk bravely through the veil of tears. Help us believe the risk – is worth it.

Help us to live the life long vigil of prayer. Lord, help us through the storm.

 

Lord help us live the satisfaction of you

To understand the significance and authority of a well-placed silence

Heavenly rest is real.

Help us to know your stillness.

Your peace.

 

Refine our spirits. Give us a faith distilled

Shimmering.

Fluid.

Pure.

 

Baptize us in the freedom of repentance

Deliver us from the darkness of ego.

Yours is a kindled redefined redemption.

With it, we glow with rapturous praise.

 

With it we will stand.

We will stand.

 

Help us embody a generosity of spirit

Tempered with wisdom and a heart for telling and retelling your story

Hinge our hope on the eternal truth of your grace.

Only your grace.

Amen.

Let your handmaiden find grace in thy sight…#GiveMeGrace

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Give Me Grace : Vigil

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Vigil – evening or nocturnal devotions or prayers

I waited patiently for the Lord;
he turned to me and heard my cry.
Psalm 40:1

The breeze at dawn has secrets to tell you.
Don’t go back to sleep.

You must ask for what you really want.
Don’t go back to sleep.

People are going back and forth across the doorsill
where the two worlds touch.

The door is round and open.
Don’t go back to sleep.

– Rumi

I stopped today in the middle of the holiday hustle to close my eyes.  Lids shut and palms to ears I prepared myself to receive.  I surrendered to the stillness around me – and listened for the space of silence between this world and another. If I recognized it, I’d know which way to go.

Each step is a walk toward the threshold of a particular experience.  Each day is shaped by what we learn on one side or the other. Sometimes we get to exhibit agency through choice. Often we choose.

Crossing over is one option. And so is finding comfort a fair distance from the entrance. Praise God for a standing invitation, open to all through grace. But sometimes, you get a call, a message delivering a divine appointment. In and through … or wait.

As much as I want it to be different, as much as I long for release –  I know what I have to do.  In this season I’m called to wait. I sense a call to stand watch, to keep head and heart toward heaven, to pay attention.  Secrets lie on either side but my lessons are here. The ultimate call is to stay awake.

I will stand vigil at this gate. I’ll read the word inscribed on my heart and write prayers from those memories on tablets of stone. I’ll wait expectantly. I’ll believe redemption’s promise. I’ll anchor myself with hope. I will be the sentinel. It is not yet time to come in.

I don’t take the call lightly and it doesn’t frighten me. I feel ready to step into the challenge of watchfulness. I’ll pour my soul and senses into this effort – believe for the beauty of what God wants me to see – what He wants me to know.

An encounter with God like this won’t be easy. It’s part of living uncovered. I’m embracing surrender to a keen sense of awareness – to stand ever watchful on my post – to be on guard and open to the work of God in my life.

I’ll resist the temptation to move forward. I won’t make hasty decisions or commitments I can’t keep. I’ll say no and yes when prompted. I’ll live the big life of love I’ve been called to through obedience.

I don’t have to understand. Say that one more time – “I don’t have to understand.”

It’s been over a year of making my way to this particular gate so a call to vigil is no surprise. It’s been a slow and steady wading through murky water. I’ve not felt clean but I have felt free – free to fight through prayer and free to be silent in darkness. To, in my vigil keep a sense of wonder, my faith in the God who sees – when I don’t.

In my vigil, I’ll know His light.

Let your handmaiden find grace in your sight…#GiveMeGrace

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Give Me Grace : Have You Seen The Wiz?

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Home is a place we all must find, child. It’s not just a place where you eat or sleep. Home is knowing. Knowing your mind, knowing your heart, knowing your courage. If we know ourselves, we’re always home, anywhere.

– Glinda, the good witch

My family and I watched NBC’s “The Wiz : Live on Wednesday. It aired last week but we couldn’t all be together to see it. Ila was scheduled to be at the rink, Big Daddy had to work and LiChai had too much homework (remember, he’s in school now). And me, well between coordinating all that and trying to finish my first semester of seminary with grace … well, you know the story. This is the kind of event you do together. It was important we wait until that could happen.

The night it aired my Facebook news feed filled with moment by moment reactions to this urban retelling of the classic Wizard of Oz. My black family and friends couldn’t keep quiet about seeing Queen Latifah cast as the Wiz, Mary J. Blige as the Wicked Witch of the West, the choreography, the costumes. But my online world is also filled with white Christian women. None of them were talking about it. Did you guys see it?

Maybe it was of no interest to you, but I’m curious. Indulge me if you will, because it was a hit. In case you missed it, NBC will air an encore presentation on Saturday, December 19th.

I love the original Wizard of Oz starring Judy Garland but I grew up in the hood, The Wiz, starring Diana Ross as Dorothy is the version I most connected with. It was the cinematic retelling of the Broadway musical starring the incomparable Stephanie Mills. It made perfect sense to bring it to the masses on television. A young Michael Jackson would be the scarecrow.

Context is important. I didn’t know anyone who lived on a farm. The image of Diana chasing Toto out of her apartment building was one I could relate to. And back then, every character in the original was white. I grew up in Bedford-Stuyvesant Brooklyn, the Bedford – Stuyvesant before gentrification. There were no white people.

But the classic story of a longing for home and finding ones identity is universal. More than anything I connected with that story, told through the music. The hopeful notes of the songs stayed with me. The lyrics grew in me, connecting me with that place we all have to find. Home.

When The Wiz was released in 1978 my family gathered around the huge floor model television we acquired on lay-away and watched Dorothy come to life in Harlem. From the very first intimately crafted scenes of family life around a table of love, we knew this story belonged to us too. I don’t have to tell you how important it is for people to see themselves in a story. Back then, the preteen version of me was already aware of the problem of race in America. Seeing myself felt good.

I learned every song and like every little brown girl in America identified with Dorothy. Home, the soundtracks hit was showcased in every school talent show. My younger brother and I played the album on the stereo in our living room. We’d take the needle on and off the record, stopping and starting our then favorite song, “Brand New Day”. Careful not to scratch the vinyl, we developed and then perfected choreography hugely inspired by what we’d seen in the movie.

It hasn’t replaced the original. I still love the original. The Lullaby League tipping around on pointe in the welcome scene is my all time favorite and I bought a pair of ruby-red Mary Janes for Ila years ago. My head and heart were on the yellow brick road when I made that purchase.

The Wiz:Live,  as a retelling, adds another layer of genius to the brilliance of L. Frank  Baum’s original work.

I thought we were the last black family in America to watch. We weren’t. The Wiz is special to us. But the story doesn’t belong to us alone. I think everyone should see this contemporary interpretation. A great story with a talented cast of actors, dancers and singers transcends any notion we have about race. I watched it because I remember how good it made me feel. The story pricked my heart as it related to the roles I play in my home…daughter, sister, wife and mother.

I wouldn’t be honest if I didn’t say it feels good to share stories that highlight our experience as Black people in America. But I also watched it because I wanted to share a great story with my children. Just like I’ve shared Pippi Longstocking and Charlotte’s Web. I haven’t chosen not to share them with my children because they haven’t been adapted for a Black audience. They’re great stories. They belong to us too.

Maybe you thought because of it’s predominantly black cast, the Wiz : Live wasn’t for you. Maybe you have no knowledge of a popular R&B artist who goes by the name Neyo (he plays the Tin Man). Well consider this your invitation. Grab a bowl of popcorn or snacks of your choosing and treat yourself and your family to a great night of entertainment.

We’re just beginning to tip the scales in favor of diversity in media. We’ve got a long way to go to get to a point where everything about the entertainment industry is shared fairly, where people of diverse groups feel equally represented, equally heard. Until that time comes let’s broaden our horizons and enjoy lots of great programming together.

You should watch The Wiz! You really should.

The Wiz:Live is also available for a limited time on Hulu!

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