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Give Me Grace : Dressember

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Writing today feels different. Today I live into a dream, an intentional plan and purpose for the next step in the progression of developing my online home. I’ve written a book, hosted giveaways and prayerfully helped others achieve their individual goals. But today is pretty special…today I lend my voice and heart to the world of social media  driven fund-raising efforts that bring awareness to commercial exploitation inherently linked to racism, poverty, gender-based violence, and the criminalization of under age youth. Today was a good day.

Sex-trafficking, human trafficking is a first world reality. Human trafficking is a common danger around every sporting event. It happens in my neighborhood. Two years ago a sex-trafficking ring was busted just blocks away from where I live.

I learned that within 72 hours, a girl or boy who is homeless will be approached for a sexual situation. And that there are currently over 30 million people trapped in slavery. What we view as an outdated institution is thriving.

It’s happening in New York.

And in every other major city in the United States.

I’m learning more about trafficking and doing what little I can to help by partnering with the 2015 #Dressember campaign. DRESSEMBER is a collaborative movement leveraging fashion and creativity to restore dignity to all women.

Last year I watched Deidra Riggs put her faith on the line for humanity  by taking part in #Dressember. I watched as her timeline filled with creative ways of wearing a dress each day in December. It spoke so beautifully of the truth embedded in her book’s title – Every Little Thing.

I promised myself that I’d do something this year.  My penchant for fashion, combined with a natural inclination for dresses (the longer the better), made this challenge a perfect fit. This year instead of just liking her Facebook photos, I clicked through to read more about the work of the Interrnational justice mission and the A21 campaign. I joined her team.

Partnering with this organization is one of my little things. Aligning myself with a cause makes my blog work – for good.

Attending seminary sealed the deal, giving me the final boost I needed to make a commitment. I’ve spent the last few months of 2015 studying the work of theologians and scholars who believe vehemently in a preferential option for the poor. Women in the margins fill this category. Poverty is lack of opportunity and circumstance we all know the impact of a wrong choice. Some choices are life altering.

I read about the work of Delores Williams and womanist theology. I learned about Ana Maria Asasi-Diaz and Rosemary Radford Reuther whose works I studied for a midterm paper. Feminism came to life.

While I wouldn’t call myself one (I’ll save that for another post), I stand in solidarity with and for the womanists, the mujerustas, the oppressed. I stand for justice.

I’ve used my blog to share my faith journey, to share my views on hard topics and to offer a different perspective in conversations gods invited me into on race in America, particularly within the Christian community. I’ve felt Gods grace in those offerings.

What was missing was a tangible way to do God’s work by publicly supporting causes I believe in – using this space to draw attention to them. So while I’ve committed this space online – as sacred and holy today’s post is all the more meaningful. Today I uncover a new level of intention with my writing and it feels good.

Today I step in with humility and grace to write my most important blog post. I write it with trembling fingers and a heart held radically fast to what God will make of my offering.

Won’t you join me in this effort?

Follow this link to my 2015 #Dressember campaign page.

and support my friends who’ve jumped into this challenge – Marcy Hanson, Kim Hyland and Melissa Aldrich

Let your handmaiden find grace in your sight … #GiveMeGrace

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Give Me Grace : Home 

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When I think of home I think of a place

where there’s love overflowing

I wish I was home

I wish I was back there with the things I been knowing – Diana Ross, The Wiz


“The ache for home lives in all of us. The safe place where we can go as we are and not be questioned.” – Maya Angelou 

Ade’ crawled into bed with me early this morning. We’d squeezed our bodies, 2 adults and 4 children, across the length of two full-sized air mattresses. Seeking the splendor of sleep after a full day of food and laughter we managed to get comfortable enough to achieve our goal.

Just before dawn he crawled over the bodies of 2 of his siblings to find me and snuggled deep in the security he unearths in my form. The world full of love he’s come to trust is wrapped in the complicated beauty of a woman he calls mama. He didn’t open his eyes or talk. Quietly he found his way in the darkness – to me. Sometimes home is a body, and mine, in it’s perfect imperfection is one of his.

And I wondered, what is it in us that craves the familiar, the matrix, our mothers, our fathers, our families …home. When is it that we stop finding our way home, when is that we stop looking for our center? Do we ever?

I don’t have much to offer this weekend.

I followed my husband to the suburbs of Maryland to celebrate Thanksgiving this weekend. His favorite brother lives here and we’ve visited at least twice a year almost every year of our marriage. It’s – a place we’ve enjoyed as a respite from the life we live in the city. We don’t have to look for parking …ever…and a backyard is a simple joy I don’t take lightly. Our children fell in love with the little people who emerged from the union of this family and live the freedom of relaxed rules being around cousins brings. We know the safety of a cul-de-sac and fantasize about life as regular Walmart shoppers. In a sense, it has become one of our homes.

For more reasons than I can recount in this space, something about being here makes me think of home.

I know it isn’t simple. Home can feel like an irreversible condition, a place of pain and hard to heal confusion. If that’s true for you I pray God creates a safe space for the generation you’ll lead as a spouse or parent. Through a fair measure of grace and thoughtful intention curses can be broken and new models of family living are possible.

I believe that.

So here’s hoping you’ve found your way home this weekend – wherever that is. I pray you feel safe and secure … that you feel complete. I pray you are forgiven and live the power of that redemption by offering it to others. Here’s hoping you found your way to the people and places that hold the treasury of your stories. That you sense an unconditional love and true sense of belonging, that being home fills your heart with hope.

Let your handmaiden find grace in your sight … #GiveMeGrace

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Give Me Grace : Heaven is Here {on letting go}

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Something’s moving,
Something’s Changing,
See His glory feels like Heaven on Earth.
Something’s moving,
Something’s Changing,
See His glory feels like Heaven on Earth – Micah Stampley

Surely, the Lord is in this place, and I did not know it. How awesome is this place! This is none other than the house of God, and this is the gate of heaven. – Genesis 28:16

I sense the cusp of a new season, and for the first time, see falling leaves as a welcomed spiritual cleansing and uncovering. I won’t resist the call to walk in the risk of my nakedness, the call – to be and live exposed. Vulnerable.

Everything dry or silent isn’t dead, and everything I don’t see is a future epiphany. The bud is a promise I believe and this heady cocktail of awareness and disbelief … the holiness of the present moment. I’m tuned into an oracle of praise that declares his presence. This life is the gate of heaven and God is here. I know it.

Bearing the code of the tree from which it fell, each leaf dropped quietly to and carried with it a memory or message. I’ve watched the canopy that covered me drop to the ground. But I’ve listened. They whispered wisdom in spring and swirl now at my feet, offering the word as an eternal flame, a timeless note of hope before surrendering to the circle of life.

And I had a revelation. I’m approaching winter happy to let go, to loosen my grip on anything ready to fall.

I’m embracing this season of exposure. It is the threshold of a new adventure – of divine imaginings, flashes of inspiration. I’m left open to let light in.

And that doorway – He invites us to enter in.

Maybe living uncovered makes us sensitive to the baptism and blessing of daily shifts in celestial movement. Maybe living uncovered makes us sensitive to His active, urgent presence.

Because before us is space and light and love, nothing but space and light and love.

It feels like heaven on earth.

Let your handmaiden find grace in your sight…#GiveMeGrace

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Give Me Grace : Do You Believe?

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I’ve spent most of Fall 2015 immersed in the Old Testament. I’ve shaken my head in doubt and sat in my seat drop-jawed over all the things I don’t know.

I came to seminary struggling to feel comfortable with the tension between what I believe and what is true. Reading the Bible through a critical lens when all you know is to love the Lord, is hard. I pulled back layers of doubt when I couldn’t find answers that made sense and crawled under the shield of my faith when I realized the answers I sought wouldn’t come. That was the hardest part – when the questions made me wonder about my choices and my convictions felt untried. I’m happy to say I’m walking out of the wilderness with a faith reaffirmed but it was hard. I’m shaking … but I still believe.

I side with those who seek liberation, who seek freedom from a life oppressed. I imagine, like most, a world ruled by love. But it’s harder to believe when you notice the margins and the people in them – when you know the world isn’t fair.

Jesus is for the poor, the grieving, the outcast. Jesus sets free. It’s why he came and why I still believe. It’s why I stand with believers all over the wold who know theology begins with an act of faith. It’s why I rest when I grow weary in my seeking. It’s why, when I come to the end of myself I sit with the word. I let its truth fill my world with what I need to know. I read it out loud. I let Him tell me who He is.

We are instructed to meditate on the word day and night, to read it to our families, to write it on the tablet of our hearts. It is soothing and healing and reading it connects us to the faith traditions of saints who’ve walked before us.

I need that right now.

The tradition of reading the word out loud dates back to the time of Moses. I’m moved by the custom of honoring the power of the word in a community of believers and know the truth of revelation, divine understanding that comes from hearing.

We can do that here.

We live in a world writhing with uncertainty, a world grown cold from doubt. We know the pain of senseless acts of violence – and the heart-broken humanity it leaves behind. Fear creeps in unnoticed and we find ourselves dangerously close to a life contained. We become the captives.

But God sets us free.

So let’s go to the word. The word is life and we give it to each other as life.

Won’t you share it with me.

I hear the word. I hear it in New York and Nairobi, in Beirut and Bangladesh. I hear it in Paris.

This. Just this. Because we believe.

I, the Lord, am first,
    and will be with the last.
 The coastlands have seen and are afraid,
    the ends of the earth tremble;
    they have drawn near and come.
Each one helps the other,
    saying to one another, “Take courage!”
The artisan encourages the goldsmith,
    and the one who smooths with the hammer encourages the one who strikes the anvil,
saying of the soldering, “It is good”;
    and they fasten it with nails so that it cannot be moved.
 But you, Israel, my servant,
    Jacob, whom I have chosen,
    the offspring of Abraham, my friend;
you whom I took from the ends of the earth,
    and called from its farthest corners,
saying to you, “You are my servant,
    I have chosen you and not cast you off”;
 do not fear, for I am with you,
    do not be afraid, for I am your God;
I will strengthen you, I will help you,
    I will uphold you with my victorious right hand.

– Isaiah 41:4-10

Let your handmaiden find grace in your sight…#GiveMeGrace

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